they are wild, we have to holler over them to tell them to hush and try to get them to do what we are asking them to do, they feel threatened or hurt or offended, they put up walls (which are communicated through extreme attitudes) and those walls are up. this is what they have been taught, what they have been raised in.
and it infiltrates to the whole group, minus a few.
my small group time was the worst it has ever been, to the point of the girls almost being mean to me, which I know they don't mean, but in the heat of the moment they feel like they have to be defensive of themselves so it gets communicated in a rude, mean way. one of the girls i am closest to i have had to constantly get on, and i gave her chance after chance until i was blue in the face from it.
through dance, group time, game time, "relaxing," nutrition class... they were all very rude, and they all know better.
it got to the point where we had to do something other than empty threats. we had sent girls home because of different things and having those examples did nothing. and earlier that morning, kay had threatened to cancel friday's fun activities if we had to tell the girls to chill as a group again. of course, they were told at least ten times just in nutrition class to hush.
so we decided to cancel camp not only friday, but today as well. hopefully the time off will give them time to chill and they will come back monday and be able to have a good last week.
it is just so discouraging, you know? you see these girls that you love so much and it is just this continuous cycle of disrespect, attitude, and when you feel like perhaps you are getting through to them, you seem to take five steps back.
it makes me want to be able to stay in their lives forever, and try harder, do something.
i just want to do something.
"no discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful; later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it." hebrews 12:11
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